I've just finished Jani Franck's wonderful 'Follow The Butterflies' course. I went into it not exactly sure what I was going to gain but hoping for more creativity and confidence.
Let me say, Jani delivered!
The biggest reward I got was learning to deal with those niggling little voices that were telling me 'you aren't good enough', 'it's already been done' and 'why should anyone want anything YOU have to offer'. I may not be fearless, but I am much braver than I was!
We were told to celebrate our achievements at the end of the course and I wondered how I was going to do that.
In a moment of madness I decided that a video would be perfect.
WHAT!!??? EXCUSE ME????!!!
"you want ME to make a VIDEO?????!!!" my inner critic screamed
'Yes!' I relplied
"Oh you are going to look SO stupid and you KNOW how horrible your voice sounds recorded!" my GotNOconfidence monster screeched
"Go Away! Take a nice vacation" I suggested
And I got myself set up to do the celebrating.
I sat and looked at the record button.
"Ha Ha! Can't touch that" chortled Don'tDOit monster
"You might be right" I replied.
I sat and looked at the record button, my palms got sweaty, my heart raced (yes it really was that bad), and I looked at the button some more.
Finally ever-so-bravely I reached my finger out and touched the screen.
The world did not end! The technology told me it was recording and I better start talking.
So I did.
My first attempt was really not so bad at all, but I decided to try again because I had missed saying something. Then ensued a dozen or more attempts each of which failed with me making faces, calling myself unflattering names and in the end just laughing. Yes, I was actually laughing at myself making a video -- I was starting to have F.U.N!
Now, I know this isn't amazingly brilliant (but wait - yes it is!! because I overcame those monsters!), the sound is awful because I guess my mic is just really bad, and the backdrop is a bit boring because I was out sitting in my sunporch but here (tada!) is the finished celebration!
On returning home from Louise on Vimeo.
Sharing it here on my blog is a whole other level of bravery because there is a chance someone might actually SEE it!!
On reflection, this turned out to be a very empowering exercise. I sent those monsters packing AND I got a glimpse of myself through a different pair of eyes, maybe even saw how other people see me and you know what? It wasn't horrific or stupid, in fact I quite like that person sitting there doing the talking :)
If you'd like to Follow the Butterflies with Jani just click the (affiliate) link below ;)
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